sometimes it doesn't work out the way you want. sometimes that is the best way it could have worked out. poor little you can't always know what is best for you. sometimes chance takes its turn in directing your life and it turns out the better for it.

no matter how hard i tried to fight against it, things just kept on going my way. an outcast? alone? poor social skills? yeah i suppose at different times but not always. things always seemed to work out. lack of negative peer pressure during the times that turn good kids bad was a benefit. small bouts of positive interactions with others sprinkled in between the loneliness to keep me going. enough loneliness to develop an outside view of society which led to a greater understanding. enough unhappiness that led to the studying of happiness and its achievement and maintenance. enough lack of opposite sex interaction that led to studying of relationship development and maintenance.

the things that went wrong always led to things that went right. it is true that we learn from mistakes. your down position will only serve to put you in an up position as the tides of life move in and out. don't look at the negative in your life as a slide to the pit of despair because it is really a ladder to the light. a "perfect" life does not lead to enlightenment. it takes a life full of hardship to appreciate the lessons that are to be learned.